Oh the Christmas holidays! It’s wonderful time when one wants to believe in magic and at the same time to kill yourself. Never during the whole year I’m same happy as during the week before New Year. When celebrating New Year in Europe it’s even easier. Catholic Xmas come sooner than usual, which means that I’ll be poisoning people’s lives one week more. In advance so to say.
Sitting comfortably with a cup of tea and a tangerine, I can dive into the warmth of Xmas spirit. For some reason I like catholic Xmas more than my own. I think the reason hides in the fact that it is sooner, that it’s before New Year – I can enjoy decorations, sparkly lights, frosty breath and cute things in shops’ windows, and I don’t have to think that after midnight there’ll be already another year.. Another year, 365 days of unpredictableness, open possibilities and chances to fuck it all up.
Last year I made a list for myself, a list of thing I want to accomplish. So what happened?
- keep doing contrast showering
more or less
- get really deep into lucid dreaming
- exclude sea food
- eat more fruits
- eat when i’m hungry and not just bored
yes, next step is not to solve depression with food
- find 10 minutes to meditate every day
more or less ok
- write in blog at least once per week
- try raw food recipes
- read, read way more
- learn 10 favorite sounds on piano
nope, just 2
- don’t waste time on unimportant things
oh the failure…
The journey of a thousand of lesson gave me a lot, and if I end up making a new list i’ll make it really putting thoughts into it. One of the things that is not even on this list made me the most happy of them all – the ability to accept gifts and just enjoy them. I got my gifts, I got myself, I got my Christmas.